When I left SJTI in 2009, we spent a lot of time talking about re-entry. The small group of us spent a week immersing ourselves in “doing the work;” instead of just talking about race and racism, we worked on how we contributed to that system. Eventually, we started to discuss how we can start breaking down that system. The work had to start internally, but it couldn’t be contained in individuals. The experience was so transformative, though, that we literally got a guide to adapting back to our “normal” lives. Our friends and families were offered ways to help us through this adjustment. Much like grieving a loved one, your whole world has changed, but people all over the place are continuing along their path as if nothing has happened — because to them, it hasn’t.
I left my blog to idle alone in the abyss of the Internet almost 10 months ago. A lot has changed for me both personally and professionally since then. On the personal side, I began dating, became engaged, and married the most amazing man in the entire world (in my “humble” opinion). My professional life brought both of us to new jobs and new states. Before last June, I had never lived more than 2 1/2 hours from my parents; now I live over 17 hours from my hometown. I shifted from a small, private, liberal arts college to a mid-size, public, Division I, research university. Those changes are easy to name. Others are smaller, more elusive to express. I’m returning to my blog in an effort to dig into the things eluding me. Many things I “saved” from my blog since March because I wasn’t sure they fit what I thought my blog should be. A good blog is specific, right? People who are interested in the student affairs stuff won’t care about my burning inner desire to learn to do portrait photography and vice versa. In reflecting on the goal of my blog (that’s some solid student affairs talk — reflecting and goals), I mostly want it for me. I don’t need thousands of readers. I just need to put things into words, as a means to “doing” my life work — whatever that may be — better. Plus, I’m a whole person, who works and has a life outside of work. Thus, my blog will be a “whole” blog. I’ll try to “categorize” posts a little more effectively from this point forward, in case I really do end up with some readers.
Re-entry starts now!
peace and love, ekt