Have you ever had one of those weeks where you seriously wonder how you survived and came out the other side with a smile on your face? Last week was definitely one of those weeks for me. Personnel issues at work (preparing to be down from 5 RDs to 3 and some RA concerns), planning to put on a drive-in workshop collaboration between SJTI and CSJE (details soon, I promise!), hitting a running plateau (read: I had no desire to run. At all.), being on duty (late night phone calls, anyone?), and feeling really anxious about where my husband and I will be next year all kept me from getting even one solid night of sleep all week. I am most definitely an idealist who looks for the positive in every situation. When faced with a challenge, I am almost always the first to exclaim that “we can do this!” Last week kicked my butt, though, and my generally under control anxiety really kicked into overdrive. My fears and worries began to overtake my ability to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I can’t imagine that I’m alone in this feeling — you’ve been there too, right? What keeps you awake at night?
With the stresses I felt last week, I can also reflect on several things I am grateful for in my life.
- It was really wonderful to connect with more women in the #wlsalt community and continue to feel supported, affirmed, lifted, and transformed. I was honestly humbled and so honored to see my blog post retweeted and commented on. It drives me to continue reaching out to these women and do my best to hear their stories and do my own work.
- I say it out loud all the time, but in case you haven’t seen it in writing, I have an amazing husband and partner. He is the absolute perfect match for me. I need to verbally process (can you tell?) and he is the world’s best listener. He actually told me that several times before we started dating. I thought he was just kidding around. Turns out, he was right. I should get him a button. At the very least, he deserves an award for being patient, kind, and encouraging.
- I got to teach some initial social justice concepts to a great group of young leaders on our campus — in 5 weeks, I’ll revisit them for the last session in their series and I can’t wait to follow up on their growth.
- Mother nature granted my area some amazingly beautiful weather in the last week. I took Zoe on an 8 mile walk on Saturday and it was gorgeous. Sunshine feeds me happiness, I swear.
- Starting Rule #1 in Tara Mohr’s “10 Rules for Brilliant Women” refocused me in some wonderful ways. I was reminded that while I need help from others to be strong, I also need to take care of myself. I have started down the path of self care through building a relationship with myself and I am excited to take on Rule #2.
- I am SUPER-excited about heading to Louisville for ACPA. Since my first conference in Nashville, I tend to spend much of the year looking forward to the next convention for several reasons. First and foremost, I get to re-connect with some of my best friends from my graduate school days at The University of Iowa. I couldn’t have asked for a better cohort and I would argue we were and are pretty amazing. I would travel to ACPA for no reason other to see them. As I commented on the ACPA Unconference Blog, I really look forward to engaging with other people this year, too — more than ever before. I really think I have twitter to thank for that!
- Despite being in a HUGE running funk, I busted out my longest run ever – 9.5 miles yesterday. I have heard how important it is to be mentally tough and persist even when you’re tired. I never had to do that until yesterday. Walking 8 miles the day before your 9.5 mile run is not recommended; I hurt. But I did it and I am SO proud of myself.
- I worked on my “personal brand” and got some really great feedback on this site. It’s the little things.